Phoebe!!!

I was blind and he opened my eyes, I was lost and he bought me home. I was a sinner and he died for me.

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Well at the mo, im just trying to live the Life and Revoloution

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Tired Mumblings

Its been a long while for me to write down my thoughts on life and God and everything and i feel like now would be a good time to release some mumblings into the blogdom.
I listened to an excellent sermon this morning on James 1v13-37 and it was all about not being deceived by the world and living for Jesus!! Was pretty awesome, but my day kinda went downhill from there, i seemed to have worked all day, and yet acheived nothing. It's peculiar i know.
Have been pondering the beauty of silence in the past few hours. Have realised how insecure i am, always having to be the loudest in the study. How much beauty there is to be found in just being silent at times. Like when i feel properly stressed out, just to be tranquil in the presence of the Lord, not having to say anything because He knows what is on my tongue, not having to think anything because He knows whats on my mind, no having to do anything because I can be still in Him, peace that transcends all things. It is beautiful. It is beautiful. I can close my eyes now and know that the God who made me is real and He is here. So often i talk and talk to God, as Fletcher says, we have two ears and one mouth, shouldnt we therefore listen twice as much as we talk? I am tired of talking and i find rest in being silent and still and quiet with my Maker. I know that i don't have to impress, i have nothing to prove i can just be who he wants me to be. Wouldnt i hear so much more if i could was listening and not blabbing.

Have also lately been thinking about how much i give to God and I'm not talking about money (although i could give a lot more in that area) i mean like in every aspect of life. If only i could give everything over, wouldnt i feel so much closer to His will? I dont have a proper perspective yet, and sure His Holy Spirit is working on it totally but i feel too attatched to this world, like im doing stuff for my own gain and not giving Him glory, then when i want something its like oh yeah God, do you mind healing my Granny please. How rude, how outrageous. How much i take for granted, and yet still how I am loved, still i am valued, still I am worth a blameless man, a Son of God to die for me. This love amazes me. Nothing have i dont to deserve it, and yet everything i have been given. Grace like a river is flowing down! Its like when CS Lewis says God has still accepted us, even though we have shown Him we prefer everything to Him. Prodigal son returning to his Father. A Father who has been waiting since his son left, always looking over the horizon to see if his son is coming home, always waiting for him to return. He never gave up, such is the character of our God, he stayed watching for His son, rain, sleet, snow, shine, watching for His beloved's head to show over the hill. Such is the persistance of our God. And when His beloved did come home, he ran to meet him, he scooped him up in his arms, and kissed him and embraced him as though he had never been embraced. I imagine it being a hug that could have lasted for eternity. Such is the scenario when a person turns to God and stumbles wearily into His embrace. He pines for his beleoved to come home, such is the love of His creation. No embarressed peck and quick hug, a heavenly celebration is held, a banquet thrown in the son's honour, angels will sing, all heaven will rejoice. I cant wait to run home, i cant wait for the embrace, heaven cries for the lost and rejoices for the found tonight. How many will run home tonight? How many will be found? How many will He embrace? Can i make a difference to that number? I pray so, with His strength and in His will.


It has been good to rambnble again, thanks for reading, if indeed anyone knows about this site anymore...

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

What a Lad

This is from a bebo site i recently found, from a guy who sounds pretty cool frankly to be writing it! Thought it was too cool not to share!

"Well I love Jesus... am captivated by his life; thrown by his effect on humanity; blown away by the charisma he had; held in awe by the claims he made; attracted to his talk and more importantly his walk; amazed that he should die for me; caught up with the chance to share in his/story and radically moved to make a difference to this planet and humanity because of him!!!!!

He had no servants - yet they called HIM master, no degrees - yet they called HIM teacher, no medicine- yet they called HIM healer, no army yet the King of Kings, He one no military battles yet HE conquered the world. He committed no crime, yet they crucified HIM, HE was buried in a tomb yet He lives today.

I feel honoured to serve such a man!I pray as if it all depends on HIM and live as if it all depends on me... "

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Where's the Revoloution?

Ok so today's might not be the best post ever because I'm having a bit of a downer. Read 1 Corinthians 13 last night i had a bit of a crisis...

" If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. " 1 Corinthians 13v1-3

What if I've been doing everything according to "the rules", i read my bible every evening, i send people verses, i "mmm" occasionally while others are praying and so on, but this verse tells me its all worth nothing if i dont have love, even being a matyr is worth nil! What a shocker, so (just trying to get my head round this) if i am the most famous preacher in the world, if i can heal the sick and prophesise, but I have no love, "I am nothing".


Recently i have felt a movement. I am learning verses, and listening to brill sermons, and i have a better understanding of Christ and what he did than ever before, but I have neglected love, the greatest gift of all, to name but a few verses on the topic:

Mathew 22v36-40
""Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

John 10:17
"The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again."

John 13:34
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."

John 15:9
"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love."

Colossians 3:12
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience."

1 Corinthians 13v4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Oh boy, i need that love back again, the unconditional love, love that is beyond looks and what is on the outside, the love that puts its life on the line, love that forgives, susteins, is patient and slow to anger and brings hope, yeah, it may sound cheesy but its Christ's love and I'm so desperate for it! I need the revolution of this love back again, like when i first received it from Christ, like when i first found out the power it contains...

I pray that we all receive this love, bountiful and rich and that we never forget it, or leave it behind in our haste to know more, nor sidetrack it in our worry to do whats right in the eyes of others, or deny it to others because we are too concerned with what will happen as a consequence.

We have been given our definition of love already in Corinthians 13, but from a different perspective the "Reader's Digest A-Z" (illustrated as well, but that does not concern you!)
love: 1, an intense affectionate concern for another person. 2 (skipping two, naughty content im afraid!) 3, A beloved person. Often used as a term of endearment. 4, A strong fondness or enthusiasm for something, 5. Man's devotion to, or adoration of God. 6, The benevolence, kindness, or brotherhood that human beings should rightfully feel towards each other....and the list does go on...

We all need this love, the love that perseveres, i hope and pray that i never deny anyone of the love that Christ has so willingly given me, and at such a cost he has given it!



Now, all my love
Phoebe

a quick quote from my bible notes, "not speaking in tongues, nor prophesising, nor healing but love, love is the sure sign of God's revolution let loose on earth"!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Book review time!!!

Under reccommendation from my eldest sister, i have started reading The Chronicles of Narnia...at first i kinda wavered and thought it wasnt so good and stopped for a time but i picked it up again a few days ago and carried on reading from where i left off and i have realised it is a great book.

I have read C.S Lewis' The Great Divorce beforehand and so was foolish to think that this "fiction" novel wouldnt be so good but i was seriously mistaken! There are so many references to biblical storys and although ti doesnt fit completely with the whole bible, the resemblance is uncanny. I also love the way that Lewis brings such life and humour to the creation story and how everything fits in with us today!

Anyway, i really recommended it and hope that it gets you thinking...

phoebe
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Monday, April 10, 2006

The Great I Am

I had an interesting conversation with someone yesterday about whether other religions should be accepted or rejected by Christians. It was an interesting debate and sparked a long thought trail in my mind but i have found a few verses that back up my original thoughts and feelings:

"Turn to me and be saved, all you ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other"
isaiah 45:22

This verse is not a psalmist talking, nor is it a disciple, it is God. He is not speaking only to His children in Christ but to "all you ends of the earth". "For I am God, and there is no other". We couldn't have been told more clearly that there is no other God. This shows me that other religions cannot exist under real gods, there is only one true religion and that is the one that is born of God and follows Christ.

And also from the bible we understand that Christ is the only way to God.

John 14:6
Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
We are not told me clearly than this, "the only way to the Father is through me"
So we cannot get to the Father through Mohammed, we cannot get to him via any Hindu God o sacrifice, the only way we can reach the Father is through trusting and beleiving in Christ's sacrifice on the cross. This is the only way are sins are washed as white as snow, and the only means by which we enter into an eternal relationship with our Father and Creator.

However this is not the end of the story. I do not think that after reading this, we should all go out and tell the muslims, the hindus and any other religions that they are in the wrong and are deeply misunderstanding God. I think we need to tread very carefully around other religions, i do not mean that we should go around teling everyone that it is alright to be a muslim or hindu, but i mean that we should show them Christ's love, just as he would have done. All we must do is love them like Jesus. Yes they may be in the wrong, but having huge theological debates and arguing about everything wont always win the battle. Christ's love will always persevere.

Glo
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Friday, December 30, 2005

Thee missionary dude!!

Simon Guillebaud, awesome missionary dude in Burundi has been such an inspiration for me (mentioned him two blogs ago). i just read an extract from his first ever news letter and it struck me!! here it is:
‘Disturb me. Lord, when my dreams come true, only because I dreamed too small. Disturb me when I arrive safely, only because I scaled too close to the shore. Disturb me when the things I have gained cause me to lose my thirst for more of you. Disturb me when I have acquired success, only to lose my desire for excellence. Disturb me. Lord, when I give up too soon and settle too far short of the goals you have set for my life. Amen.’

i hope that this christmas time has been a blessing to you all and that God continues to bless you
phoebe
xxxx

Sunday, December 04, 2005

long time waiting...

hi!
first of all im very sorry i havn't blogged for a long time, had a heck of a lot on and blogging hasn't been top on my list of priorities! But just a few notes now on what i've been up to...
i went on an awesome christian camp called lymington rushmore in the summer. Got to meet loads of young christians and was a great faith grower!!
Christian Union at school has been a bit of a struggle i feel this term. It's hard to accomodate for what everybody wants and so we have had quite a lot of "discussions" about what to do in the 40 minutes every friday prep. But prayer will sort it out.
Also been doing the school play for what seems like a lifetime, the four performances were from wednesday to last night and it was awesome stuff! I remember when joe, one of the lead actors almost lost his voice on the second night, 4 of us christians backstage all huddled round and said prayers for him lead by Meegs and it was really cool. It showed me how sometimes im afraid of asking for God in situations like that but really, he's the only one that can help, "just do your best and let God do the rest!". His voice was completely healed last night, prayer works hey!!!
I've also been talking to Simon Guillebaud via email and he is SUCH a legend! He is utterly living alongside Jesus in Burundi and is God's hands and feet out in a really tough part of the world. His work is....
+ Evangelism and discipleship through schools and churches
+ Printing of teaching materials
+ Fighting the AIDS pandemic
+ Supporting a street children’s project
+ Helping to sustain an orphanage
+ Equipping and encouraging informed dialogue between Christians and Muslims
+ Training university students in outreach

Prayer for safety of his family and co-workers and the growth of the church in Burundi would im sure be greatly appreciated.
il leave you now with an awesome verse...
Isaiah 58:11The Lord will guide you continually, watering your life when you are dry and keeping you healthy, too. You will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring.
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