I was blind and he opened my eyes, I was lost and he bought me home. I was a sinner and he died for me.

Location: United Kingdom

Well at the mo, im just trying to live the Life and Revoloution

Friday, March 25, 2005

God's children

i read last night, i think it was in my bible notes that we should honour and look after the people that God has blessed us with. Im not just talking about our friends and family, im also talking about people who we barely know, or people we are meeting for the first time. They are included in God's family just like the rest of us and therefore we should love them just as much as we love our closest friends and family members.

Iv realised that the group of friends i hang out with are really great and everything but what about the people who aren't in that group of friends, what about the people who get sidetracked everytime we go and get a movie and leave them out or whatever. They aren't the only ones who get hurt when i do this, i cut deep a gash in God's heart that beleive me, runs like a valley for miles. Everytime i leave that person out or cut out the 'loner' of the group i am in a large way cutting out Christ's love and i hate that. I need more of the unconditional love that he has and less of my own harsh and ugly love.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

The Western Front Trip


just a quick one to say im off on a western front feild trip with my histoire class for a long weekend. It should be a brilliant start to the easter hols and im really looking forward to it! Something that has made me slightly apprehensive though is that my teacher asked me to read the lesson at the church memorial service and im not a very good public reader so any prayer would be greatly welcomed!!

Anyhew, better get back to my english essay,
have a great Easter everyone!!
lots of love xxx

ps Meegs good luck on your D of E camping,
Sam good luck on your rowing race
and see you on the bus!!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

those little doubts

This sounds really bad but iv been doubting recently wether God really is in control of every situation. They'r annoying nagging doubts that keep creeping in on me. Like when my mum went into hospital the other day, i wondered wether God really did have this one in his hands. But its become clearer now, God made everything, absoloutely everything. His arm extends down to earth and he takes us in his grasp, none of us are out of his reach. Psalm 139 (recommended by my brother) reminded me that God knows everything, he knows us, he knows our thoughts and minds,he knows what we are gonna say even before we'v said it and i find that comforting. I cannot even begin to comprehend how awesome, powerful, wise and in control God is but there is a great understanding that i have found in God, it's like things that were once blurry are now clear i can't quite explain it but i think it's to do with the doubts. Now, when the doubts creep in i kind of know that God is helping me to tackle the issues, he's giving me a clearer understanding and knowledge in him so that the doubts are slowly creeping away.....n i think thats kinda cool!!!

Thursday, March 10, 2005

The River of God

i feel like im in the middle of a river. There's a small currant flowing upstream, its flowing towards the source. I used to be walking against the currant, away from the source and towards bad stuff but i feel like i stopped a little while ago. I noticed that it wasn't the currant that was going in the wrong direction, it was me. Now im learning how to walk with the currant, its tricky, iv gotta concentrate hard on the way the currant flows to stop slipping, but its exciting and exhilirating at the same time.........

Sunday, March 06, 2005

All or nothing!

I have a lot of friends who beleive in God, but they don't know him. They are torn between living for life, and living for Jesus. I just wanna say to them that there isn't one second of a day that goes past where God doesn't think about them. Guys you know who you are, you've gotta make a choice about living for Jesus, and following him. There is NO in-the-middle compromise where God is concerned, he is the beginning and the end, the alpha and omega, your God and your Father.
You cannot only beleive in God when it suits you, when you feel like it. You cannot give only certain aspects of your life to Jesus, while you cling to others that are worth nothing. God isn't someone a million miles away, sitting in some cloud in heaven, he is right with us, here, where we are. He hears you when you deny your faith, he crys for you when you turn your back on him and carry on as if you don't know he exists. You cannot carry on living divided like this. Give your whole life to Jesus, every aspect, every moment of joy and every moment of sorrow, everything you do and everytihng you say. Do not hold anything back from him and i can promise you won't regret it. It's not easy, it takes time to learn to live for Jesus, and it's a rocky path, sometimes you'll stumble and sometimes you'll fall but jesus will be with you, he will take your hand and lift you to your feet, and when it feels like you have nothing left, and you can't carry on he will carry you in his arms untill you regain your strength.
I'm not saying that im perfect in giving my whole life to Jesus. It is hard and yes, i do stumble over small stones, i do stop before an obsticle and my faith falters, but when i turn to Jesus, he shows me the the right route and leads me in the right direction and my doubts and fears dissapear.

"My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, i shall never be
Psalm 62v1-2
It;s time to give up your old way of living and start on a new life that is lead by jesus, here and now, give it up.


ISAIAH 40:21-23

"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
Has it not been told you from the beginning?
Have you not understood since the earth was founded?
He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth,
and it's people are likegrasshoppers.
He stretches out the heavens like a canopy,
and spreads them out like a tent to live in.
He brings princes to naught and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing"
Isaiah 46v21-23

Saturday, March 05, 2005

To never know love.

I watched the comic releif programme on people in Ethiopia who are living in complete poverty. It was a real eye opener. There was one boy who had been living in a homeless shelter for the past five years or whatever. He had had to live on the streets because his familly could no longer afford to "keep" him. His mum was suppossed to be collecting him from the shelter that day but she had not turned up. It was so sad, this boy had no motivation to keep living whatsoever, and yet when his mother didn't arrive to take him back home, he made an amazing decision. He walked out of the shelter, back to his familly, bearing the weight of like six people on his shoulders. He walked out of a safe and loving situation, and back into poverty, starvation and pain. I don't know how he did it.

There was another story of a young girl who had been living on the streets since she was two. She had been raped at that age and again at the age of three and abused continually. She had had to stay awake at night to try and decrease the rick of being raped. She had never, never in her memory known love, never been embraced by someone who cared for her, she certainly had no idea about Jesus. She, like so many others, had absoloutely nothing to live for. There were so many other storys like hers, they broke my heart to fragments, the pain and sorrow these people lived through every single day!

I think my point is that we, as christians should be doing so much more for people living in those conditions. Maybe the odd pound a month to chrisitan aid, or buying a red nose for comic releif, whatever, it makes a big difference to those who don't know love, who don't know comfort or belonging, or a life without pain.
The most powerful thing we can do is to pray. We chould never underestimate the power of prayer, thats like underestimating the power of God!


Wednesday, March 02, 2005

unfailing love..

the love that never fails, the love that never falters, the love that created us, the love that saved us,its this love that we must love, this love we must show to others, for there is no greater love than God's....

the God that never fails, the God that never falters, the God that created us, the God that saved us, it's this God we must love, this God we must show to others, for there is no other God...